Feinberg and Feldman
I've never felt like this before. This past year it has been very difficult. I can't find the appellate judge who tried to keep me from suffering by leaving clear instructions on my transcripts that my civil rights and my human rights had been taken away from me. He was the best man I ever met, as good as my grandfather's. When I sat on the stand in that courtroom I was at the end of my rope. To many bad things had happened to me. It was the judge that made it better.
When he realized what had happened to me, he stopped the precedings, he instructed the bailiff to go stand beside the witness box, right by me, he asked his clerk to get a box of Kleenex and bring it to him, had the bailiff bring it as he came to the box I was sitting in. I didn't know what was going on, I thought I was about to get arrested for something, I was crying already pretty hard. The judge said he had to tell me something that was going to hurt. He said he was sorry.
Then he told me that a terrible terrible mistake had been made. That I should never have been convicted of a felony and that I was a victim of crime and not a criminal, he said it should never happen but it had. I just felt like I had been cut in half , I could not understand. Then he apologized to me. He really apologized for the entire system, he told me I did a good job of hanging on, and that it was heartbreaking for him. Then he had the entire court audience apologize to me. He had the bailiff apologize to me, and he told the bailiff to put his hand on my back for support. He made the federal attorney apologize to me and he made his staff apologize to me. In open court he did these things. He made my attorney promise to take care of this matter, he told her that he would be checking,checking with the bar. To make sure she had kept her promise. He made my boyfriend promise as well.
When it was all done I asked if I could hug him. He let me. I told him thank you, told him I loved him. I gathered that this was unusual behavior from a judge. Could see people looking on with wife eyes. That's how bad what I told him and what he discovered were. The events of my life had been so extreme, so unjust, they had almost annihilated me. It shook up the judge to even hear them. That judge was the most humane person I ever met. That day was one of the best days of my life.
I did talk to him in court about the rape by Jeff Epstein and when he me if I had an attorney helping me try to get compensation from Jeff's family I said yes. I stated in court that it was Jordana Harris and Kenneth Feinberg, I remember him saying he had heard of Mr Feinberg and I went on to say proudly that Mr Feinberg was helping people in New York to get their belongings back from the Holocaust, from the nazis. My boyfriend Tony Manek his mother and grandparents escaped from Auschwitz when Tony's mom was six, she had some bad problems that no one understood. Apparently the Holocaust was not discussed, Tony had not even known that his mom had been at auchwitz, when I discovered it, I understood why she had had so many difficulties. Her father ran a printing press, they were Protestant but they family was taken anyway. They started over here in Oklahoma. So I had found out about the assets they had lost. Got in touch with attorneys in New York, got Tony's family to deal with their past, to get them their claim, in the nick of time. I was proud of that. I told the judge that as well. So it was in full faith that I believed that Harris/Feinberg were going to take care of my Epstein case. After all I had told them both, cried my heart out, they had promised to take care of it. Promised it would be ok. I just assumed I was doing the right thing by waiting on them to do September 11. To take care of that first. I put my things to the side.
So not only is there a court report of these statements, there is also audio of these statements. Kenneth Feinberg you were mentioned, so was Jordana Harris.
Pure outrage does not describe how difficult it is day by day to live with the fact that I was treated SO BADLY BY THIS VICTIMS COMPENSATION FUND. That all Mr Feinberg had to say was, oh well Allison, life is not fair. And hung up.
You see those two are bad eggs, there is no way to hide or cover up the truth here. The court record holds the facts and as I write this, they records are being retrieved in Maryland. Social Security is treating this as a critical matter of life and death. Mine.
Today I am going to be evicted, from a place that I've only had a few months, because I can pay, I need a minor surgery that I can't afford to have, my boyfriend is getting his car repossesed because he is also disabled and put his money towards helping me get off the streets. It wasn't enough. My dog Tasha needs eye surgery. I won't see my children because of this. I am being starved out. Do you know how angry I am when I see that I am losing any chance I have at surviving, losing time, losing people I love, my little family because harris/Feldman did this to me. There is no forgiveness,no oops I'm sorry. Because why would you ignored anyone that you promised in writing to communicate with. Why would they lie like that? That will be the million dollar question.
Am I about to bring down a very very powerful man, or will I die trying? I go nuts in my head just trying to think of some way to get money. I even asked Jordana to send me a thousand dollar prepaid Visa just so I could eat and have shelter. She ignored me. And what kind of judge allows someone like her to have so much power. Read the Epstein vcp protocols online. Anyone who reads then us immediately aware something is very wrong. The language is narcissistic and maniacal. Its creepy.
So then that is feinbergs intent, he and this woman. It their intent to see me suffer to the point of death, with no care at all about decency, about honesty or about the law. They simply don't care if I die. I even told Kenneth Feinberg on the phone to please not hang up on me because I was suicidal. He hung up.
He does not care at all to make things right, so why is he a mediator, why does he get to make decisions for other people's lives if the guy is being blackmailed and doesn't have the sense to even settle this matter so that I can live. Why doesn't he just call the email@example.com and say that he is being blackmailed?
He needs to resign from his practice but before he does he needs to make me an offer . So that I can survive.
Next week this won't just be a substack post, the transcript will be read, I'll know who the judge was, I'll send it to the attorney discipline committees, the attorney general, his clients and his wife. I will have the proof within a few days.
Will I survive those few days? We shall see. I will suffer probably the worst pain ever as I take another loss because of these two. I guess they were just going to say prove it. Guess what, I am proving it. In 2004 I made those statements in federal court. They were recorded. Mr Feinberg knows this now but is still unwilling to do anything right. They are both liars and they both belong in jail and that's what is going to happen. It is attempted second degree murder, gross criminal negligence and moral bankruptcy. But for a few more days these two have the ball.
My freedom if I survive will be my most valuable tangible thing after this. It's a miracle I remembered and that I survived. So enjoy your weekend Kenneth and Jordana because come Tuesday it's a whole new ballgame.
You reap what you sow, more than you sow it, later than you sowed out.
I'll survive I hope. Will you?